60.

Thank You.

I just want to say thank you
for the things I've noticed since you've left.
no longer am I confident in myself
no longer do I allow myself the freedom to have
fun like I once had.
no longer am I the one that dances with no music
or sings out of key.
I am boring and scared of the person I was, but I miss her.
I look in a mirror and wonder where did she go?
where is the girl who didn't give a shit,
who did what she felt like doing,
never thought twice of what others thought
I can't stop that voice in my head warning me,
don't act out, don't be noticed
being notice might attract another.
I refuse to let myself attract again for fear of being broken.

So thank you for shattering who I once was and molding me
into a hidden away no one too scared to draw an eye to her

Thank you.

H.

59.

I have never really understood crying tears of joy till this moment.
I don't think people really understand the relationship between a writer
and their notebook, but for the past few nights my notebook has been missing.
Tonight I entered full on panic attack mode while on the search to find it.
I cleaned my room, car, the entire house all on the search for a two subject
five star, Teal with pink and purple flowers and of course two pockets. Finally I reached a breaking point at 3am I had to get my book back flash light in hand
mother now wide awake styled in my ratty old pajamas I headed back out to my car
and there on what felt like the millionth time checking I found my notebook,
wedge under my drivers seat stuck in the chairs mechanics as I pulled it out from
it's hiding place I checked it like a parent checks a new born child for fingers and toes; spiral not bent, pages not ripped cover still attached and tears began to flow.
I have now cried tears of joy.

H.

58.

this summer is hard.
Loneliness while surrounded by people,
I want to talk to you, to hear your voice.
summer was always our season
how do I enjoy without you by my side?

H.

57.

Just a little Venting.

1. If you don't appreciate something you have, give it up others are dying to have that
2. If you are a school, everyone deserves a chance even if they don't look like they fit your mold.
3. Summer weather is crazy
4. Don't tell a girl you're crazy for her when you're cross country and seeing some one else... it's just plain mean
5. Bragging about things just cuz ya can it's not nice.
6. If a coupon has expired, it's expired!
7. If you are unhappy with a companies policy do not yell at the part time, minimum wage earning cashier, they can not help you!

H.